整我!?!

Naw, she can't be that cruel.

Or maybe?

No, she won't. FAT FAITH I give.

Really, at some point long ago, my life took a dive bomb.

Took a turn for the worst, never to turn back again.

And now, meet me, in a current state of decadence.

Trying to change and improve now.

Yes, it starts now. But I've lost a lot, only to wake up this little bit.

Lost the faith of others, lost the trust, lost the support -

No point listing them down, really. I don't think they'd ever look at me the same again.

I've made myself out to be such a piece of shit, especially to them. Some selfish creep who'd only think for himself.

I kinda live alone now. Its so different from before.

Well, life was too good before, though it still is now, but losing all that, moves people.

Not as in touched, but kinda sets me moving.

Selfish eh? I keep talking about myself.

I still have people trying to bring me down, discouraging, intimidating, insulting.

Should be a motivation to work harder for everything right?

Quite ah, so should do something soon.

Why is it that you seek her so much?