Whoa, huge mess. A confusing day. My mind sure went wild.

Now I'm damn scared and worried.

Perhaps I deserve better ( not referring to studies ). And I should be doing better in studies. Only now do I feel the increasing pressure. Only now do I actually feel any bit of urge to work harder.

I only hope that all this is enough. Suppose it should be.

With all that said, I'd seriously like to talk about where I went from morning till now.

I went to Choa Chu Kang library in hope of helping Jie Rui who sounded like she really wanted to get better results and not get retained.

She's giving up too easily. I was kinda put off by that, but didn't express it. Now I'm expressing it here.

Seriously, there's still hope. If you doom yourself by thinking that you confirm will get retain and don't even try to study, of course you will get retained. She has to think otherwise, and all I can do is tell her that.

Whether she changes this attitude or not is another matter.

I can't hold her at gunpoint and force her to think she can make it.

I don't mind the slow pace. But the least you can do is to not to be so nonchalant about the studying.

If studying is so sian, you can't absorb anything from it. Study, and enjoy it in the process, that's called learning.

And she didn't heed my advice, I feel like I'm talking to a wall.

Suddenly, I'm seeing myself, stubbornness and everything.

We're all supposed to keep running like some mad dog for the final lap. I thought of cutting my legs off, in other words, giving up.

But hey, I'm not giving up. To give up now, you must be the greatest fool in the entire history.

Speaking of which, I don't feel capable of getting A for combined humans. It's just not my thing, even though I didn't try hard enough for it this time.

But hey, I didn't fail anything this time round, wee.

I kinda felt like a trophy today. I think there was a greater motive than just getting me to help her. I don't know, I think too much.

I wasn't much of a help.

Well that sums up the day.

Feeling damn disturbed now, thank God that worst case scenario didn't happen. :D