One's certain teacher PMS-ed today, could very much tell; she was suddenly so fierce.

So one shall use her sudden-ness as an excuse to emo for a while.

[Once more, this is emo time, so please do refer to "one" as "I" from here on.]

I'll be pretty much quoting lyrics from English songs which I've been pounding into my head recently, driving me into a state of madness.

[ Quotes from Ne-Yo - All Because Of You ]

Want to, but I can't help it; I love the way it feels,
It's got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real.
I need it when I want it, I want it when I don't.
Tell myself I'll stop everyday, knowin' that I won't.

I got a problem and I don't know what to do about it.
Even if I did, I don't know if I would quit but I doubt it.
I'm taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true.
Baby, you have become my addiction, I'm so strung out on you.
I can barely move but I like it-

[CHORUS]
And it's all because of you [3X]
And it's all because...
Never get enough,
She's the sweetest drug.

Think of it every second
I can't get nothing done,
Only concern is the next time, I'm gonna get me some
Know I should stay away from, cause it's no good for me
I try and try but my obsession wont let me leave.

-END QUOTE-

In this song, Ne-Yo pretty much refers to this special girl whom he needs, as though she's a really powerful and sweet drug. And how he is struggling with this addiction, so am I addicted to you?

I know I should stay away from you, because you probably don't like me the way I like you, it's no good for me, this possible one-sided love. But still I insist on loving you. Give me the oppurtunity to help you in any way possible, please. Stop leaving me there to rot, stop using me like the "second-option man" I am. Hurts alot when you simply just tossed away my concern for you, not that you would feel my pain. I think I'm sounding very selfish now eh? Then again, this is emo time.

[Quote: Ne-Yo - Do You *( YES, DO YOU,LOL ) ]

[CHORUS]
I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore?
Do you?

-END QUOTE-

Wow, that was short and simply sweet. Not very hard to understand eh?

So I'm here wondering, do you still think of me like you did last time?
Or have your new friends now taken priority over me?
Do you still think of me anymore? Am I still in your mind?
Of course, if I were to go on a "SMS-ing and Calling" frenzy, you'd think of me, as a dickhead. LOL. So what the hell do I have to do to make you think of me, I need to know.

[Quote: 30 Seconds From Mars - The Kill]

Come, break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside.
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance.
I know now, this is who I really am.

-END QUOTE-

I really like The Kill. LOL. Though they're pretty much what people refer to as Screamo ( scr-emo) band. Still this song is nice, why bottle up your feelings? Scream it out, otherwise die suffering from it.

I really want to stop myself, she doesn't have such feelings for me, so why do I keep trying? If I keep trying, and fail, she'd had to come and bury me, for I would've been finished with her.

If only she got the chance to look into my eyes more, she might then realize how her careless tossing away of my concern is killing me. How normal I am to her is killing me too.

I tried a little change, but nothing seemed to change, for I don't even get the chance to show her the new me. Not that she'd give me the chance to let me do so anyway, why go out with me when you have your new friends?

So this who I really am inside, insane and selfish beyond anything.

-END OF EMO TIME-

Eljyn is gay, no point trying to deny it dude-

Sorry one meant to say, gay.

People asked if you were gay, and you said no, but your actions sure didn't seem that way.

So in conclusion, ELJYN IS GAY, NO DENYING IT.
http://elgy-n.blogspot.com/ I'm going to link to him pretty soon, for he-

Sorry, how do you refer to a gay then?

For it is a gay. Shall link to it for mere kicks.

Also, one has had a fetish since young, a fetish of beating up gays and watching them whine like the gays they are, one is not like others who find joy in beating up kids. But really, being gay is just WRONG. WRONG. WRONG. WRONG. WRONG. FUCKING WRONG. WRONG.

So you better watch out Eljyn. Pity you being so open about being gay, and worse, denying it.