久未放晴的天空
依旧留着你的笑容
哭过却无法掩埋歉疚

风筝在阴天搁浅
想念还在等待救援
我拉着线复习你给的温柔

暴晒在一旁的寂寞
笑我给不起承诺
怎么会怎么会你竟原谅了我

我只能永远读着对白
读到我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在

我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖
我很快就离开

久未放晴的天空
依旧留着你的笑容
哭过却无法掩埋歉疚

风筝在阴天搁浅
想念还在等待救援
我拉着线复习你给的温柔

暴晒在一旁的寂寞
笑我给不起承诺
怎么会怎么会你竟原谅了我

我只能永远读着对白
读到我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在

我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖
我很快就...

我只能永远读着对白
读到我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我就请你当作我已不在

我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖
我很快就离开......

Filled with lyrics to fill up the space. For I have little to say.

I suppose I disgusted you? Hurt you? Touched a raw nerve?

I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have done this to you.

Or maybe you're unaffected, and would love to torment me instead.

Or maybe you do not wish to give me the wrong idea, and stayed away from me.

Really, the next time we see each other, it'll be so awkward.

No, I won't make it so.

But perhaps you'd run away at the sight of me, I'm that repulsive.

I love God. For He blessed me throughout my entire life. He kept me happy. He gave me all that was good in life. God, has once more graced me with his holy graciousness.

Thank you for loving me so, God. It seems like once was not enough, you had to bless me with this situation again. It seems like you love to send gays hounding after me. It seems like you love to get me to do things I do not wish to do.

It seems like you find pleasure and delight in tormenting me so, our Father in Heaven.

Credit goes to God for all the blessings, and all curses and mishap would hold Satan credible.

We so desperately try to live on, with perhaps no purpose in carrying on living.

Like ants in God's terrarium.

I'm sick of living like this.

Yet somehow, I can't bring myself to kill myself.

Oh, "Christians" might be offended by what I've said so far. True Christians would do otherwise.

God blessed me with such a beautiful and happy life.

Live with it, I need some time to rot and ponder over certain things.