I've lost. Yes I have. I may think too much, but it is so obvious.

I have lost not to who I thought it was, but someone I completely do not know. Some guy.

I've seen some photos.

It may not be what I think it is.

But such intimacy displayed in them, its killing me.

I don't know what to think but this:

I've lost. To some shitface.

I'm a shitface too and you're are so pretty.

I can't entertain you. I can't make you laugh everytime we talk. I can't give you decent advice. I couldn't do anything for you.

I didn't.

I'm ugly, and you're so beautiful.

My Beauty and the Geek ending seemingly has been snatched away by some shitface.

Sorry to be so bitter about this, I shouldn't say this about him.

As long as you're happy, I suppose I can be glad.

Stupid me.

I won't clarify this with you, this is not a matter to probe about.

Ah, the self-torture.

For all we know, it may not be what I thought it was.

Regardless, I will still attempt to impress you, just that one shot.

Either as a friend, or as someone I love.

But my love is probably cheap and disgusting.

I'm not capable of flashy things like others.

I'm rotten.

Flirtatious Spider Fire, is slowly dying off.

Rotten Spider Fire, mocks it, and is still at large.