You're not really needed, I'd throw you away.

I'd discard you like the useless filth you are.

Devious and cruel as I am, I'd do it. You can bet on it.

Yet I have never been granted such an oppurtunity before.

For it is rare to find people more useless than I am now.

So I'd need a lot of people by my side, yet few people would need me by their side.

I'm that " something special ", perhaps to a select few.

To most people, I'm but a retard who is unable to express himself properly with words.

I can never express my concern for others in proper and clear words.

I can never sweet talk people to worship every step I take.

I can never talk to others properly.

I find this rather repulsive. Not only do I degrade myself with my own words, but I'm so useless, I can hardly be that " something special ".

Its not as if I have to be most people's " something special " in order to live. But somehow, being some lousy, useless loser is not very appealing either.

I really wish to change this. I hope I can suceed.

You know something? As a reader of this post, you may already have given up reading this post long ago, or you may have read up to this point.

For you may not care about what I have to say, or what I wish to do.

For I might not be your " something special ".

Thus, my words may never mean much to you.