Such undesired haplessness.

Not your fault really, I am to blame. It's my wrongdoing.

I mean, why would you be bothered and concerned when so many others also can't be bothered.

So, this only goes to show how much of a friendship we have.

Huh, what friendship?

Ha ha, it's pathetically painful. Something must be wrong with me, that I can't even stand in that place. It's that place, equal to the rest of them, your fellow good and cool friends.

Hello, not eligible, dude. FUCK OFF. It is not for you to know. Nosy fucker.

I'm so not there.

Friends, they really are there for you despite how uncool and foolish and dork-ish you may turn out to be at times.

Friends, are not something you make intentionally. They're what others willingly comply to become. Such dedication and faith you'll receive from friends, it's heartwarming.

So, I've got like this small little warm flame near my heart, warming it so slightly yet so faithfully. I appear to neglect it, for my heart feels fucking cold and empty.

Maybe you would be such a great flame.

It's not your obligation. It never was. Or maybe it was once. Maybe it still is now. You don't seem to show it. Possibilities are so infinite, hate that. And, once again, I have no balls to ask whether you give a shit, I'm not eligible, remember? Pain.

Really, friends don't mind the flaws of their friends. I've seen your friends and your cousins ( Shh ) and I know, they have their own flaws, for no one is perfect right? And you don't mind their flaws, and they're such close people to you.

I so want to be one of them, but I can't. Why, I'm way too flawed? Or are some people attempting to sow discord between me and you? Actually, there's no need for such reasons and excuses.

Perhaps, you just don't like my face. Great huh.

Of course, they're closer to you, they've spent so much time together with you. They've been there for you when you were down, or facing difficulties. Unlike me, who previously had been a geek/hermit for 80% of my life, perhaps still am. I've changed a lot since back then, but I still don't know how to make you happy.

Maybe you'll be happy if I just fuck off. :D

So it's foolish of me to think I'd be able to clinch such a position in your heart -

Wait, what's this I see? You're meeting new people and you're so much happier off.

I got it. I'm a bore. And because I'm such a bore, you can't be as concerned huh.

Such strangers are cool and new, like an exciting package waiting to be unravelled, with such wonderful and entertaining content in them. They'll never fail to surprise you with their unpredictability.

Unlike me, an old package that's been opening itself to you over and over again, and my content isn't as wonderful either.

So you know what's coming, you get sick of me and you choose to dao my sms when I start being stupid, and even my friendster comment.

I'm not a friend in your eyes? Not worth replying? I really don't get it, so I have to clarify, am I eligible to do even that?

So, you're so cold, yet, you help me out, you kept Gran's bass for so long, you wish me good luck for exams and the band.

Confusing ah. I don't want to think about it so much now. Too hurt. Fragile balls.

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On a more sane note, I understand. There are so many girls out there, why you? Why you so unlucky that I have to like you?

Hard to explain. I could say it all over again, but it's rather pointless.

Why I keep wrapping my life around you? My life just hangs there, stagnant, I should move on.

Like, improve. Though I know it'll probably be the same.

Sexy-er and cool-er doesn't change anything. Unless you're that superficial, which I believe you're not.

Then move on, improve for yourself. Or maybe for your next crush to feel better next to you. Simple.

Actually, is there even a need to be attached? Or even married? I don't know, not going to think that far, not now.

Suppose it's very consoling and brightens up lives. Sigh.

Slave, struggle and squirm, mentally about you. While you slave, struggle and squirm for others.

I'll still stubbornly take my chances here.

You'll be a wonderful person to be with, and whoever would be with you, would be the luckiest person ever.

So long as you happy can already.