The difference is, how much I can do in one single day and how much I can bring myself to do in one day.
It's really selfish and stupid, I'm not working hard enough, not enough to catch up, does this mean that I really want to disappoint those who are concerned?
I really don't want to disappoint them, but, why do I feel this tinge of reluctance? Why do I still prefer to waste my time away , escaping from reality? Why?
Doing four Math papers in one day won't suffice. It's easy for me to tell myself, that I should work harder and I could do so much more.
It's another matter when it comes to exacting out what I've said.
UGH.