Counselling was a little helpful I guess. Not solved yet though. Not salvaged yet. Wondering if it would be possible.

I don't see hope in myself, no wonder it's so hopeless. I've been kicking up such a big fuss, I've been thinking the wrong way. And I'm stuck thinking this way.

I'm feeling like shit now. I didn't make it into Miss Chong's class. I don't know why, but I was really put down when I was greeted with this news.

I felt quite disappointed. Then I thought positively for once, why not I work harder and try to get back into her class? Then again, it's just the last few months, it's not very possible. I want to talk myself into the group, but that's stupid too. I seriously am uncomfortable with someone unfamiliar, like Mr Thomas and Mr Tan.

Ugh, you don't know how much I want to be in her class. So uncomfortable, it's like taking away a baby's toy.

I'm too disturbed, I can't work now. Too different. Too weak.

I might even be getting worse. Pound more music into your brain.