Hm, imagine people who were born on the same day as any O level paper, kinda sucks right? I mean, their birthday would be so ruined. But then again, if anyone were to be mature enough, they wouldn't give a shit even as lousy as that day would feel. I'm not one of them, but I can put myself in their smelly shoes.

Why am I talking about birthdays? Chong Xiu's birthday is coming. He bought me a gift. I should buy one too right?

I don't know, really. There's just so much on my mind now. I'm sorry, Chong Xiu..

To procrastinate, I'd review teachers. Who am I to do something like that? Take it as some sort of feedback then. They motivate me.

I'm very sorry to Mdm Yu, I just keep dwelling and lamenting in this emo shit and never did work. And the work I'm doing now is not the standard she expects. I'm just going to let her down again. Why am I taking so long to do just this little bit of low quality work? Apparently my Chinese isn't as good as she thought it was? She's really nice and friendly, she says I'm of a good standard, but looking at my work now, I feel like such a letdown. Is it because I'm disturbed, as a result, restraining me?

Disturbed bastard that I am.

Mr Krishnan, gives you the impression of a disturbed person. He, kinda has a split personality which alternates very often. From angry to happy, he keeps doing that. I owe him work. I can't find my SS FYS. But I can do his history work over the weekend. So Mr Krishnan, don't go all Krakatoa can?

Scary he is much. I fucking hate Humanities, fucking useless subjects. Oops. This is a wrong mentality which must be discarded in order to learn better.

Ms Leong. She is a very wonderful teacher. I'm really taking her for granted. But still, I feel so restrained and lethargic. There's hardly any time after school for work, and even though I sleep earlier than others, I'm still a lethargic fucker.

And the medicine makes matters worse. Stupid drowsy effect. Fuck. I want to finish my medication quickly.

Mrs Goh is very professional. I just need to pay more attention and put it more effort, I guess that would do. She's harsh, she's loud, she's fast, she knows her stuff and she can impart her knowledge in manners that would be easy for us to understand.

New environments, live with it.

Speaking of which, I can't stand Mr Thomas' class; our group is too big. Miss Chong's group is also too big and I'm not qualified to go there ether. Mr Tan's group is rather big also. But hey, never mind, Chemistry can be aced by studying, given that you are given some clarification in certain topics to learn better. Mug, practice, and make sure you do Miss Chong proud. YEAH!

It reminds me of the horrible thing that happened on that day. Sigh.

Ms Saras, she can be harsh, she can be a fun person. She knows her stuff. And even though her voice has such a high pitch, it often lulls me to sleep, or perhaps it's because her lesson is always at the last period. And Ms Saras knows I'm going through something. I have to show her that I'm putting it aside for now, work hard and ask her for some help with Biology.

Again, another person I won't want to disappoint.

Lastly, but definitely not the least, Mrs Yap. Yeah, she's really nice as a teacher and in person. I don't want to disappoint her either. It's not like I'm getting encouraging messages from her every single day, but every now and then she'd message just to check up on me. I treasure that so much, because it's all I ever get. I'm not expecting anyone to do something like that for me, yeah. You can tell she's really passionate in her teaching. She puts in so much effort to teach us and give extra lessons also.

Not like some people who do this job just to earn money and get cheap thrills by tormenting people. Tyrants, with no passion at all. E.G LDW and GKY. Their names pop out so often. Can't be blamed, they're simply asking for it.

Anyways, I don't want to disappoint my family and most teachers. I don't want to squander their time and efforts. English seems difficult to get A1, but I'll have to do my best. Isn't that motivation enough?

I still need a long long break. Sigh. I want to halt time. But time stops for no one. Still have some waking up to do. Could do with anti-depressants, ha ha. Such a wimp.

Have I ever mentioned how much I am addicted to Eagles Of Death Metal? They aren't a Death Metal band, so rest assured.

OK, gonna do some Chinese.