It's just weird, I can't exactly explain it.

Assume this, you were once a depressed bastard, although we don't know how OK you are now. But currently, you definitely are doing better. Credit goes to the encouraging words from people who care, pulled you up a little. But hey, it just stopped. Somehow I felt a bit empty for a while, like something was lacking.

But, think positive. Perhaps it's because people had already acknowledge you as a better person already, feeling that they could leave you alone to fend for yourself, they did just that.

Furthermore, at least people bothered to make time and effort to comfort you. So yeah, feels much better.

Just before, I wasn't receiving this in a proper manner. Like some kid who was overfed with a sudden burst of attention. Then when it just disappeared, kept feeling horrible.

For goodness sake, I really have to think and behave like a 16 year old. If I keep overreacting and being so sensitive to such trivial bullshit by thinking too much, it'll lead to my downfall.

Another thing I must note, it's not that they don't care anymore, they know that you know that they care, and they know for themselves that you can be on your own now.

So show them that you can make it on your own.

Going to revise Chemistry and Biology tomorrow. I can't assure anyone that I'll get A1 for anything, but I definitely have to do better. And in order to do better, gotta start moving.

Oral coming. Damn scared.

OK, it's true that people won't like you for being an emotional and depressed bastard, thus making it difficult to befriend or even talk to people. Because eventually, they get pissed off, couldn't be bothered etc, and just heck you.

I'm not denying anything, I know for myself how true this is. Like, how interesting would someone like that be right?

And through all this, you can see for yourself how great your friends really are. They won't get sickened, they won't get weary of having to hear your emotional bullshit, etc. Of course, don't ever take such people and their patience for granted. But thankfully, some people beared with my bullshit. How nice of them.

I recall someone telling me this before: She's no longer keen to talk to you because you tend to get emotional.

Yet, I wasn't always like that, I'm certain we had our fair share of fun conversations. But yeah, things went downhill and all I often was was some emo prick, said things that didn't even make sense to me even now. Still.. she's my friend, isn't she?

I don't know. Not gonna fret about it. We still are on talking terms, she wished me good luck. Like, YEAH MAN!

Yeah if I still thought negative, she wishes a lot of people good luck also.

Positive thinking, at least she wished me good luck.

Yeah, sleep. Sigh.