AHAH! It's 12 am currently, so we've entered the next day, which is Monday 5th of January.
So I can throw another post here and there will be another date pasted above it in red text.
What happens, when you're a huge mess. Start blaming people? Who is at fault?
The one at fault, would only be you, for not dealing with things properly. Here I see myself, clicking away, typing away at retarded games that take up my time. Shouldn't I be doing something better? Why can't I get out of this?
To escape from the reality? To stone and while precious time away? Why is this happening?
Things are worsening, and the reality sinks in deeper, you have got to stop running away. It is happening, not because of what others have done to you, but merely what you doing unto yourself.
Forgive me if the later part bores or agitates you.
While reading, how about you listen to a nice and soothing romantic little song which features Rui En? RUI EN!
So I indulge upon the likes of Travian, clicking away and being happy that I have a few thousands of measly troops, some huge villages and attacking people who've already realised that this game is a waste of time. Thus they are also known inactive farms.
And then there are people who are far worse off than me, who pay real life money to gain huge advantage over others in this game, and spend almost 24/7 of their time on this freaking game.
I'm not sure if I will last any longer, is there a point? Sometimes I think to myself, " Hey, I've wasted so much bloody time on this freaking game, am I going to let that all go to waste, by quitting? ". But then again, am I going to let more time go to waste?
I'll say this, one of em huge players might be attempting to wipe me out of this game, if that happens, perhaps I should think him for giving me a reason to quit?
Why, dear Big Player, thank you for destroying me, now I can spend more time on my life, enjoy wasting away the rest of your life and money again and again.
See, the thing about this game is that it has to end eventually, or there won't be new players to come, it just keeps restarting and the same old people who pay for this game will just play again and destroy everything in their path.
Sure, it had been fun. I enjoyed it, but at the same time, I feel a tinge of guilt and discomfort. I can't keep up, I'm not heroyunn(a big player) or bong-ra(another big player). I can't keep up with them. They'll be destroying me soon enough and I don't think I can do anything about it.
I'm not them, I'll be in JC/Poly soon enough, I can't be as no life as them when this happens. They'll destroy me while I'm studying in school, or hanging out with people.
You might think, hey since it's just a slow suicide, why not just end it already?
It's actually what I think is likely to happen eventually, but we might just survive. There's a good chance. Maybe. I don't know. But I don't think I'll be backing out. Dedication to an alliance, see.
So, we'll just see how this goes, just throwing out my dilemma with this computer addiction. You know, I could do things while the timer is moving down, but I like to multitask and do another computer thing at the same time. Thus, one thing leads to another and I'm officially hooked onto this computer.
We all know, there's better things to do out there. OK, enough about wasting times on games, feeling guilty, and yet not doing anything about it.
Lets create an abrupt change of subject.
Or not. I'll save it for another day or something. From 12 am to 2 am, so I took 2 hours to think and type.
