Trust me, this is rather much a good song. Some of you may have heard it while watching 7 Pounds. I've heard it from way before, and its nice as ever.
Anyway.
What's this? I've had enough of being your toy, a victim of your last resort mechanism. A voluntary fool, who is discarded once his entertainment value has been used up. I keep throwing myself around like some retard, sometimes entertaining you, sometimes failing to do so. But when I happen to fail? It ends there.
It is tough, to even be your friend. Talking seems just so difficult when it comes to you.
Nonetheless, you're as beautiful as ever. And I'm glad that I am even part of this last resort mechanism, better than never a resort at all. But how about, I got Over You?
Or It's Not Over? Lol, Daughtry.
As in, all this while, my JC choice had depended upon yours, CJC was the only thing ringing in my head. But now I have doubts, yet otherwise I don't know where to go to either.
But what I know now is this, it'll never work out. So I can put a stop to this wishful thinking. I'll disappear from your life, and pop by once in a while, thats all.
Move on.
Funny eh, should actually be talking about results. Hello results!
15 points raw score, which isn't exactly the most impressive thing in the world, but hopefully it'll land me in a good JC. Say, CJC.
I faced many things today.
A: I got 7 points! You?
K: I got 15, more than twice of yours, lol.
A:(No Reply)
If you happen to read this, oops. Though it could be anyone who scored 7 points, I'm sure if you're reading this, you'll know it's you.
I wouldn't be asking for sympathy and comforting, because I'm OK with this. But from that reception, or rather, no reaction, I got the impression that you don't talk to stupid people.
Forgive me that I'm dumb then.
Yeah, and sometimes I say the wrong things, forgive me if you feel insulted and don't want to talk then.
Or there was a problem with your phone, but whatever.
Next.
We went out to eat, bowled, then eat again. Oh what fun. Thanks Leonard for your generosity. Joking around and talking was fun.
New school, new environment, can't wait.
Anyway, while we were on the MRT, two AJC girls came in. And upon seeing us, identified us as Catholic High graduates, and started speaking out loud about how good AJC is, and how lousy the other JCs were, they couldn't stop! LOL. Advertising their school, a bit BHB but also daring and cute.
Maybe should go AJC? But with this kinda score, I doubt so.
Anyway, everyone please be contented with their results.
My suicidal friend, lets name this friend Jesse.
Jesse has been suicidal for a long long time, I've always tried to pound reasons for living into Jesse's brain talking and SMS-ing. But it never worked, yet Jesse still remains alive and kicking very hard till this very day.
And now Jesse has 14 points. 1 point higher than me. 5 points higher than our good friend. And Jesse has no Higher Mother Tongue bonus wor.
So Jesse SMS-ed me, " Maybe I'll go suicidal. "
And I replied " Siala, why the sudden negative outlook again? "
J: Why not.
K: People like our dear friend did worse but still is hopeful ma, all hope is not lost, don't give up so easily!
J: That didn't really help but thanks anyway.
K: Eeyer, so emo. Things aren't as bleak as you think they are. Please don't do something silly, there are people who still want you around.
J: (No Reply)
Seriously, is today "Dao Kai Sheng Day"?
Anyway, Jesse, don't die. You better sort yourself out since people like me can't do much to help out either.
O level results, be it good or bad or unexpected, anyone is permitted to cry, for it stirs strong emotions in us. While people who've gotten the results they've wanted, jumping up and down in exhilaration, the others who were disappointed can look at them and feel worse.
But we all have to get over this and move on, there is still so much ahead of us!
Maybe CJC doesn't sound so bad now. As for you, I could care less. Let nature take its course then, but I know nature won't make this course headed for you.
