Please don't do this to me. I'm only human and there's only so much that I can take. It's not like I'm not trying. If there's something I'm doing wrong or there's something I'm lacking in, please just tell me so that I can work on it rather than showing attitude.
Misunderstandings happen when one person thinks he/she has fully grasp the whole story but in actual fact has only seen and thought out only a part of the story, or worse: to have thought up a whole new situation which is a far cry from whatever that is going on.
The human mind can be ridiculous at times, I know this on a personal level so I understand. But it's best that we clear things up then to stress each other and everyone else up.
-------------------------------------------------------------------------It's been a hectic week, I know everyone is tired, I am too. But seriously, the concert is just this Saturday, and while other CCAs have been practicing actively throughout all this while, we have been having slack practices, just twice a week and we end earlier than them even. And so, we have to iron out all issues that we have currently while we still can, so that we'll do a good job on stage this Saturday, I do hope everyone understands the severity of this situation and will not take it so lightly.
If we do well in time, then all the more we can cut down on practice timings, but can we really call ourselves good enough? I know some of you are, but what about the rest in your sections? What about those who are struggling and can't keep up? What have you done to help these people?
Guys, we're called Guitar Ensemble for a reason, not Guitar Soloists. Everyone is to work together and play well in unison and coherence. So please, help and work with each other with whatever time we have left.
Another thing is, we have to familiarize ourselves with our scores ASAP. Just how many of you can play your part by heart? Accurately and on time, without having to check on your fret board and strings every now and then? I know it isn't easy, but do try the best that you can so that you'll have an easier time playing the song as well. Also, if you are to familiarize yourself with your scores, you can then refer to Sim Yee for the timings and cues for dynamics and certain parts, that's why we have a conductor to work with.
This brings me to my final point, our conductor. What sets the president and the conductor apart is that, I, as the president, am merely meant to take care of administrative matters, organizing and planning whatever that goes on in this CCA by working with the rest of the committee members, and to address and inform you all of important things, like what I'm doing right now. Whereas our student conductor, is our guide through the piece, she knows how all parts work and sound like together and what to do at specific parts, and her job is to coordinate everyone together and make sure everything comes into place.
So in a sense, she is the one to lead you all through this musical aspect of the performance, not me. And that's why I am counting on her to get everything together and straightening it all out. But I'm not counting on her alone, because guys, she's only human and there's only so much she can do on her own.
I'm counting on all of you to cooperate with us to make practices go more smoothly and efficiently, that way, you guys wouldn't have to complain about practices ending late every now and then right?
Also, I'd like you guys to understand and appreciate her taking out the time and effort to help us out by conducting for us. It is not an easy job I tell you. How many of you have the guts and skills to stand out at the front of the stage alone, pressured between the audience and the ensemble to conduct? How many of you have the dedication to cut out every single bar for all 4 sections and paste them together to get a conductors score? How many of you have to worry about and work on all 4 sections and their issues one by one? How many of you think you can do a better job than her?
Guys, it's not an easy job to do, so I hope everyone can appreciate and acknowledge that. Please give Sim Yee a round of applause for all her efforts so far.
And that is all I have to say today, I believe that everyone has come to an understanding that we all have to work together to bring out the best in our ensemble, keep your morale and spirits high and we'll work hard together OK! Let's make today's practice the final and best one!
-------------------------------------------------------------------------Sigh, and if only I can say it all out in front of everyone on the spot. I guess I should print it out and address the ensemble this Thursday. I guess I'm just not good with speaking out what I really feel and think, not really good with expressing myself so I need to plan and sort things out before I blurt them, otherwise it just comes out dumb.
Low morale is demoralizing and it makes you want to give up. But you cannot. You have an example to set.
So yeah.
Time to try and memorize lyrics.
I miss you... :(
