Hello, Prelims are due to happen next week. Been studying for a bit the past few days, shall keep pressing on. Rested much and had a good weekend as always, perhaps rested a bit too much :X

Can't seem to go to sleep, hence this post at such an unearthly hour. I feel like I need to talk to someone but no one is online of course XD No one I'd really want to talk to anyways :/

At some point of time in life I told myself, no matter how mediocre and pathetic life may seem to others or even yourself, just be content, cherish it and live on, because it's simply a wonderful blessing to be alive.

Don't compare your life with others'. Everybody leads different lives facing different conditions. Some may have been better off, while others may not be as lucky, it is the choices that we make and the actions that we choose to do that eventually determines how our lives turn out.

While you may be well to do, should you indulge in luxury and whatnot, how far would that get you? While, you may be facing tough obstacles in life, should you become stronger by overcoming them and moving on, would that not make you a better person in life?

There was once that I dreamt really big, and I still do it seems, for this is partly why I've been unable to go to sleep for certain days, like this one.

Still remember the first few steps that I took towards that. Sure, they may have been small and unimpressive, but finally I tried. I may not have been well supported, but finally I took the chance.

I honestly admit. I've changed. Those days are now far behind me. When was the last time I picked up the guitar? When was the last time I went to some rundown studio just for a few hours of fun and practice? When was the last time I sang, to myself even? Yet I still can't let go. I know I can't play darn well, I can't sing darn well, I don't have the good looks nor the confidence..

But is continuing to shoot myself down like this and not doing anything about this dream the way to go? What happened to fighting for your dream and all that shit? Can you look back and assure yourself with a: " At least I tried hard enough. "? I doubt I can.

Then again, maybe the mere essence of music making would suffice, you don't have to go that far. Like you could make it that far or manage anyways. And also, people usually don't know what they want do they? For all you know, this might not be what you want? OK I'm just bullshitting.

Sure, I can say, I'll get to it after A's. But I still can't let this feeling go. Life is harsh, and sometimes, dreams have to be forsaken for such a harsh reality.

We got to study.

Yup. Gotta clear my mind of all these nonsense and gear up to study all the tomorrow. Prelims are coming.

Life after A's, we'll see :)

Thank God I'll be meeting Gran tomorrow, right timing XD