Empty. And it's probably just going to get worst.

It's funny, how the end of A Levels would supposedly bring about a new lease of freedom, as we no longer have to struggle and fight for grades in the meantime. We can just sit back, relax, and practically do whatever we want now eh? Everything legal that is. XD

Anyway anyway.. I don't know why but apparently it isn't going the way it's hyped up to be about. With all the recent happenings and what's about to happen, I feel lost, stuck in a complex dilemma and simply do not know what to do. Empty.

One - Regret
-For all the lost times, all the lost chances of being there for others, all the misplaced priorities, the lost friendships and god knows what else has vanished. Yet most of it is gone for good. Simply regretting and lamenting would not do you any good. Make do with what you have and whatever time you have left. Continuing to feel empty wouldn't get you anywhere and there's probably nothing much you can do about things anyway.

Two - Dilemma
-The inability to choose one out of a variety of options. In this situation, the indecisive would face a difficult internal conflict. You could run away from having to choose, yet may your conscience haunt you. In my case the right option is pretty clear, yet given the current circumstances, heavy opportunity costs are involved as well, hence the severe dilemma.

I'm seriously at a loss.

Three - Pursuit
- Find a job, resume band practices, catch up with friends etc. Will there be time?

I think I seriously need to talk to someone who'll straighten all this out.

On a final and most important note:

I pray that you'll tide through this, rough period of time and come out even stronger. Some pains aren't worth enduring, some emotions aren't worth keeping, some memories aren't worth cherishing, sometimes it's better if we let go. We should when it comes to this. Take care..