It felt as though I had a knife through my heart since last night, no kidding nor exaggerating here, seriously. It's as though something happened which I shouldn't know about. My mind playing tricks on me again? Or am I still connected in spite of all this?

All the misery that keeps accumulating and coming back to you in waves, put it aside. Learn to come to an understanding. The more shit that comes my way, the more it makes sense now.

Come out stronger, don't you dare collapse and give up now.

7th October should mark the end of OJE, from then I'll really put in all my effort, to make a change.