I know the day isn't here yet, but it's so close it might as well be. And now that we look back, damn did those years just flew by. Like seriously, it seems like just yesterday where we sweating ceaselessly on an island filled with a certain kind of bittersweet-ness. And soon after it was on to OETI for days which I shan't speak of, but those were good times too, haha! After graduating via a painstaking 'POC' parade and finally officially graduating from OETI weeks after, it was on to unit life at CBRE. Then to a mysterious place called 36SCE in an already mysterious camp of Selarang.

I must say, I can't imagine army life without Justin who stood by me all this while. I know it wasn't exactly by choice all the way and I wasn't exactly the best of company but yeah that's how it was. We worked our guts off nonetheless till the very last day. Man. So it has finally come to an end.

As some of ya'll may know, there were a few things that kept me going through these two years. But so many paths were built to diverge, and mere compromise on my part just wouldn't cut it. I've lost much but I'll take what I get.

I gotta stop fixating so much on things and just keep a loose rein I suppose. And that's why this has to stop. I've told myself countless of times before that I should just focus on my own path. I've wrecked good friendships like that before and I simply can't afford to do the same again.

You mean a lot to me, and I don't have the guts to do anything about it. I know I'm still quite broken and damaged, but it's not just that. I suppose its just that this friendship means so much to me in an odd kind of way. And that's all too familiar.


So I'm not about to let that happen again. And no matter what, I'll always just remain thankful for everything. :)